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Hunger Comes in Different Forms.

Hunger Comes in Different Forms.

Sooo before I come up with a topic to blog about, I sit and think about what is something I can talk about that is ME - to the core. 

One of my coworkers mentioned when he saw my website that it said, 'Hi, I'm Kaylee!!'..which is something we joked about at work forever about. Or should I say I got made fun of by that specific saying? Either way, it was ME. 

So as I sat and thought about what I was going to write about...I was like okay...passion, yearning for more, and.....I'm hungry....like I need food. HA! 

So small back story about me: I'M HUNGRY!!! Like I seriously love food. And I'm hungry often. I joked with a past coworker of mine, Sandy, that when she left, she was going to miss hearing me say 'I'm hungry' every hour. :) My love for food is real. And it's not a bad thing. People often relate fitness to diets and eating LESS. Well, I'm hear to tell you to stop shaming yourself for loving food!!! You can be healthy and fit while still loving food. 

Food should be soon as a way to nourish us. Food is what gives us LIFE! We should LOVE WHAT GIVES US LIFE?!? Right?!?! Amen I say!!

But here is another back story about me: I'm HUNGRY - FOR MORE - FOR KNOWLEDGE - TO BE BETTER THAN I AM TODAY. And I know that a lot of people, especially anyone reading this, is looking to be better than they were yesterday. In whatever capacity that may be! Maybe being a better friend. Better spouse. Better self confidence. Better leader. Better boss. For YEARS, we are sat down in a classroom and taught AT. And then one day you graduate and go out into the real world and get a job and then..........wait....are you still learning? Are you still looking for ways to get better? I used to rely on my management team to shove knowledge into my brain. 

NEWSFLASH: WHEN YOU GET OLDER, YOU HAVE TO SEARCH FOR MORE KNOWLEDGE. YOU HAVE TO WANT TO KNOW MORE! 

But I am telling you, this is WONDERFUL! YOU get to decide what you want to learn. What you want to get better at.

I so wish I could have done this years ago. Like math class. I would have walked out and been like NAH, I'm headed over to Home Economics class. ;(FYI, learning math and all subjects is necessary!!) I am just saying, being an adult is great when it comes to learning. You decide where you want to put your mind.

So this is where I landed: In life you can have different forms of hunger. But they both give us life.

On one end, we are hungry. For food. Food gives us life because we need it to survive.

On the other end, we are hungry, hungry for more knowledge, which also brings us life and fulfillment. 

This led me to my first series called, you guessed it, HUNGRY.

In this series, I will be touching on the food hunger and cravings, how to deal with them, tips and tricks to feeling fuller AND on hunger in the sense of ambition, yearning for knowledge, passion and what we can do to take the this hunger and drive it into action. Because let's face it, with hunger also comes real life obstacles and something called procrastination that I know nothing about....(that was sarcasm folks). 

Stay tuned for this series!! Kicks off this Sunday!!

KJ

 

 

 

 

 

My Why.

I have always been involved in sports growing up, specifically basketball, volleyball and swimming. During the off season, I would feel the need to go for runs to stay in shape or ask my mom to go to the gym (although I had no idea what I was really doing). I felt a need to be active. I never understood it, until now. During the long summer days, if I had nothing planned, I sometimes would be very lazy and watch TV for hours. The way I felt after those lazy days was not good. I realize now those feelings were that of anxiousness and depression. I felt lethargic - and often times - the lethargy would not go away for a long time. I could sleep for hours and still never feel rested. I would try to go for a jog around the block and just felt unmotivated because of all the days of no activity.

Summer would end and school begin. School brought a schedule and sports again! That anxious and depressive feeling would subside, for an amount of time.

Fast forward - college. I made it a part of my schedule to go to the gym everyday. I found relief from the stresses of college and it was my outlet. 

Fast forward again - junior year of college. I quit going to the gym. Instead, I worked 3 jobs and went to school full time. I had no time for the gym, for sleep, for anything that was good for me. Soon, anxiety and depression took over me. By senior year I was a complete mess. Some days I would lay in bed all day, some days maybe not eat. Others I literally cannot describe the feelings I would have. Anxiety is a twisted and messed up thing to deal with. I wouldn't be able to move or breathe, especially during times of stress.

During this time of my life, I lost a lot of weight (yay right?!) and everyone complimented me on how good I looked. But deep down, they had no idea how bad I felt. I was happy how I looked too, because I had wanted to be that small for years! I remember the day I was walking to class and a pair of jeans that used to be tight to even get into were falling off of me. That's when I realized I needed help. My mother (God bless her forever) and some help from professionals, helped me quite a bit. But, let's fast forward again.

I graduated. I did it! But what now? Thankfully, the gym I worked part time at needed some help in another department. And so, I became full time - a blessing for me that I will never forget. At that time, a new program was starting at the gym. This program was a small group training program. I wanted to work out with a group of people, it was like being on a sports team again. Having a 'coach' aka trainer to guide you through the workout and about 10 people to work out with was like high school try out workouts all over again. Now, at this time, I still struggled with depression and anxiety for sure. Not as bad as in the past, but it still came up every now and then. However, I realized that the more and more I went to the gym, with a structured plan or a trainer to yell at me (hahah), the more my anxiety and depression subsided. My confidence rose and low self esteem left. 

I had never felt so good. Physically strong, but more importantly, mentally strong.

It is still a journey everyday. As we all know, life is absolutely crazy. You never know what is going to come at you.

That is why, I train for life. For a rollercoaster of life. Emotional, physically exhausting, insane life. 

I promise you, that finding a way to incorporate fitness into your life, in whatever way that may be, it will surely make an impact in other areas that you did not expect. It did for me.